Patience

I was thinking yesterday how much I'd like to go see my grandmother. You know, just run over for the day, visit, take her out for lunch, let her chat with Allen and the boys, etc.

But she died in June. And it still hits me hard each time I realize that I won't see her in this life again. I know I can take comfort that I'll see her in the next, and yes, hearing about her last words definitely was inspiring and wonderful and amazing, but it still hurts here in this life.

It took a long time to let myself grieve - mainly because I knew I'd have to deal with my mother, after not having had any real contact with her for nearly 20 years - her choice. I didn't allow myself to even cry until September - my grandmother's birthday.

I'll see her again...patience...

Everything old is new again

You know, I've kind of enjoyed going back through old posts and reading things I've written in the past - issues with which I've struggled, joys I've shared, victories I've celebrated, darkness I've fought. Unfortunately, it seems like there were a lot more of the bad stuff than of the good, and perhaps even more disturbing - at least to me - a lot of this "bad stuff" is still around...

Monday

Sometimes...

Anyway...we've been challenged as a church body to imagine this year, and as a part of that, to trust him, to praise him and to pray. Sounds simple enough, but wow, bringing it to the forefront of thought really was a a true challenge today. ESPECIALLY today...

Another post!

So I just finished watching my elder son and his girlfriend work out. I asked him this morning to help me get into some shape other than round and he was thrilled! I think I might be in trouble, although after watching them this afternoon, I'm kinda looking forward to it. I just don't want to interfere in their time...:-)

Anybody out there?

Wow - I can't remember the last time I actually BLOGGED...! Well, I guess I could actually look at my last post and see the date...but what fun would THAT be!?

The changes around here...

We have a senior and a sophomore. Prayers appreciated. No, really. The senior and his girlfriend are closing in on 2 years together - and we adore her! He wants to be a firefighter and is working toward that goal by doing ride-alongs, etc. His plan is to attend a local junior college and work on his paramedics licensure/associate's degree while she finishes high school. After that, we'll see.

The sophomore is working on getting his driver's license. Can you say "tunnel vision"? Can you also say "Mom's useless right now"? I'll explain in a moment. We've had to work around big bro's and dad's work schedules recently but he's been pretty patient.

Allen celebrated 20 years on the department this past spring - hard to believe! He's truly an amazing man - and not just because of that!

Okay - on to my story...I've had some medical issues and have been diagnosed with epilepsy. Which means that I can't drive. Which means I can't take HIM driving. Hopefully, it's a temporary restriction, but we'll have to wait at least 6 months. There are other restrictions, but that's the biggie. They can't tell what's actually causing the seizures, necessarily. The neurologist found a small, but inconsequential lesion, and also said that there's some brain shrinkage but didn't seem overly concerned currently. Just something to keep an eye on.

Anyway, it's been a tough year, what with that, and my beloved grandmother's passing this summer, but we're holding on to His promises and praying for His glory to shine through our lives in 2012!

Many blessings and blugs!